Ive lived for just 23 years but the pain has been with me forever.
Because my mother mind has been playing tricks on her since we have been together..

I can remember a time when her mind was just out of control.
We would go to sleep in the warmth of a house,but wake up outside on the bench in the cold..

Red or Green were the colors that told if me and my brother could ever go outside,
but if blue was ever seen then or lives were in danger so we had to stay in the house and hide..

Not knowing what tomorrow lies, it was her strong belief in god that keeps us alive..even in her worst of times,
So “GOD” should stop playing games and bless her with a better peace of mind.

Because the sun doesnt shine on a woman that stands alone, But my mother is my queen and she never needed a man to stand on her thorn..

So she did it on her on and strived to make my future better then what it ever could be, but it pains me to face reality that one day this sickness is going to take her away from me…

But before she goes theirs some things I need to say,
Mama I am sorry for getting mad cause you never came to watch me play
I guess i couldnt understand it was that damn sickness that kept you away.
I am sorry if it seemed like I turned my back but I just couldnt sit there and watch you suffering like that
And Iam sorry for giving you a grandaughter at such a young age
but i think you for opening the book so my family can write a new page.

Its like your in a cage mama and you just want to get out..

But you mind is your keeper and it wont let you walk freely about..

Trust that you are not without the love and support that will one day set you free
cause the devil is a liar and he needs to just let you be.

Youll see mama gods going to bless you with happiness even if its just for one day

because I know one day will be better then nothing

Because I know this sickness will “one day” take you away

Love you mama